The song “Wish You Were Here”, by Pink Floyd is a song that I have a real connection with. There are a lot of reasons why I love this song, the fact that classic rock is my favorite music genre being one of those reasons; however, the main reason is probably because of the lyrics. There are a lot of incidents in my life when I have felt that the words to this song is exactly how I’m feeling, and this specific part of the song especially. I felt extremely connected to this song when I lost one of my close friends, and when I moved from home.
My junior year of high school, my close friend, Lexi Bender, was killed in a car accident. It was a couple days after she passed away, that I first heard this song on the radio. It instantly have me chills, and I went home and immediately downloaded the song onto my iPod. The part of the song that says, “Wish you were here,” had an obvious connection because I missed Lexi and I wanted her to be there with me. I wanted her to hear the song that was making me think of her. I didn’t leave my room for days. I didn’t want to face anything or anyone without my Lexi.
Then, the song continued, “Were just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year, running over the same old ground, what have we found the same old fears wish you were here.” I had never paid attention to the rest of the lyrics, but then in a moment it hit me. I was closing myself off from everyone that loved me, just because I was afraid of being without lexi, and even if I hid in my room, like the fishbowl, I would still have the same fears, but if I went out and faced the fear of being without Lexi, then I could let go and move on. If I let myself retreat back to feeling this pity for myself, then I would never be able to move one from Lexi’s death, and “year after year” I would be stuck in this small space, like the lost souls swimming in the fish bowl.
A few years after Lexi’s death, I decided to come to Ohio University. At first I was very afraid, and I was not used to so many people coming from such a small town. I was also used to having my family to come home to every night. Instead of seeing the opportunity I had been given, I saw all of the things that I didn’t have, which was my family there with me, and this caused a lot of fear. I once again retreated back to that state of loneliness, and I shut myself off from others. I would go to class and then return back to my small, prison like dorm room. Once again I was back in the fish bowl.
I heard the song again, during this hard scary time. Once again, I sang the lyrics, and I remembered their meaning. If you withdraw yourself from the world, your fears will still be there and you will just be repeating the same thing over and over again. I wanted to change this, so I got on my computer. I applied for five different internships, and wrote the leader of a group for video production, and asked to join. Then, I went out and visited some of the girls that lived on my floor. Because I faced the fears of being away from home, and away from my family, I was able to see all of the opportunities that I was given. Here I have made new friendships, and am in a wonderful program for video production, which has been my dream for years. I am no longer afraid of being on my own, and I know that no matter where I am in the world my family will support me.
Life can be almost terrifying, and if you let it get the best of you it will, and if you do not face the things that you are afraid of then they will always be there to imprison you, from the things that you want out of life. On the other hand, if you face your fears, then you can overcome them. You can reach anything that you want because you will not be withdrawing yourself, and you will have the potential to accomplish your dreams in life.
1. )Gilmour, David and Waters, Roger. How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls Swimming in a fish bowl, Year after year, Running over the same old ground. And how we foundThe same old fears. Wish you were here. “Wish You Were Here” Wish You Were Here. CD Pink Floyd Music Limited. Pink Floyd Music Limited http://www.lyrics007.com/Pink%20Floyd%20Lyrics/Wish%20You%20Were%20Here%20Lyrics.html
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